Children and Parents Wander the Alleys – Translated Version

VanceTwins.com Searching for their Parents From the Book, The Search for Mother Missing.

ORIGINAL SOURCE: San Francisco · Kim In-jeong (Nonfiction Writer) 2025.09.29

International adoption in Korea has been criticized as virtually state-sanctioned human trafficking.

The existence of Janine, Jenette, and Kyung-sook is proof of this. Those questioning the Korean government have yet to receive a proper answer. The “Mother’s Arms Cemetery” in Paju, Gyeonggi Province, opened in June 2025. The memorial wall within the premises features approximately 700 name tags of international adoptees.

The sisters lived in a 4,000-square-foot house in the woods outside Seattle, USA. They had devout Presbyterian parents and two older brothers. It was a life given to twin sisters adopted from Korea without question. They didn’t even know which of them was the older sister.

Their adoption papers simply stated that they had been found on the street corner in Seoul.

They were taught not to ask more than that. They believed that adopted orphans were saved. The sisters grew up as typical American girls, enjoying McDonald’s hamburgers, Michael Jackson, and roller skating.

Of course, they kept a few secrets.

Clothes with unmarked tags, magazines unopened, boxes piled to the ceiling, and heavy furniture clogged the hallways, leaving the house cramped. Only the older brothers had their own bedrooms, while the twins were given only nooks and crannies.

Their adoptive mother kept a vigilant eye on them, fearing they might touch her belongings or sneak food.

Twins Found In A Box: Adapting to Adoption by Janine Vance

Twins Found In A Box: Adapting to Adoption by Janine Vance

Inviting friends over, like other children their age, was out of the question. After their adoptive father fell 100 feet from a hang-gliding accident and became confined to a wheelchair due to brain damage, their adoptive mother’s compulsive hoarding and depression worsened.

At school, I wanted to be different. I wanted to be a cheerleader — someone who could dance and cheer in front of others. Maybe being a twin would even work to my advantage. But from the very first day of school, I heard racial slurs mocking Asians. The cheerleaders laughed openly at us, saying, “Did you come from China?”

Janine, who was always the more sensitive one, often stood in front of the mirror when she got home. She saw a face that didn’t look like her family’s or her school friends’. As she examined her reflection closely, she secretly began to dislike the features that made her different from white people.

Around the same time Janine was hating her reflection, another Korean-born girl stood before a mirror in a small room of a seaside house in Tønsberg, Norway.

The face staring back at her seemed to say she would never truly belong among “them.” No matter how hard she looked, she could never figure out where her nose, cheeks, or straight black hair came from. It felt like trying to piece together a small fragment of a huge puzzle without any clues. Kyung-sook tormented herself, wondering if she was somehow a mistake — a person who shouldn’t exist.

Her family had fair skin, light blond hair, and big blue eyes.

So did the people she passed on the streets or saw at school. She was always told she was ugly. No one ever explained why she looked different. When she asked her adoptive mother, she was told, “You don’t look any different from the other kids, so stop asking stupid questions and don’t be annoying.”

Children who disappeared “without their parents knowing”

Kyung-sook had been adopted to replace a baby who had died. Since she was little, she’d heard over and over that her parents had to take out a mortgage just to adopt her. Maybe that’s why the beatings never stopped. She was called horrible names — told she was dumber than a monkey. She was often left hungry.

Her adoptive father touched her body.

Her small room wasn’t a place of rest, but a hiding place. She hid in corners and cracks, wishing she could just become part of the wall — or die. Her adoptive parents were soaked in alcohol and cigarettes, and they didn’t even wash her clothes.  At school, her different appearance and smell made her the target of relentless bullying. On her way to and from school, instead of friends, she was met with insults and violence. When other kids yanked off her scarf and hat and threw them into the mud, there was no friendship to be found — only isolation.

She was always alone.

The only place she could rest was by the sea. There, hidden from her family and schoolmates, she caught tiny crabs on the beach by herself. She lingered there, not wanting to go home. Each time, she imagined freshly baked bread waiting for her — but deep down, she knew she’d return to hunger.

She hated the face in the mirror.

The Search for Mother Missing, A Peek Inside International Adoption by Janine Vance

The Search for Mother Missing, A Peek Inside International Adoption by Janine Vance

In 2004, when the Vance twins were 32 years old, they came to Korea for the first time. They were excited — it was their first time meeting other adoptees and seeing so many Koreans — at an event commemorating 50 years of international adoption.

Walking through a dark alley from the cyber cafe, on the way back to the hotel, a strange Korean man suddenly appeared and slowly approached Janine. Janine instinctively recoiled.

From inside his coat, he pulled out an envelope. 

He held out an envelope. He patted Janine’s shoulder and began speaking rapidly in Korean. Up close, she could see deep wrinkles around his eyes, and his gaze looked sorrowful. Before she could react, he pressed the envelope into her hands. All she could understand was “Thank you,” but it seemed like he wanted her to deliver it to someone from Holt.

Inside the envelope was a letter written in broken English, the handwriting pressed hard into the paper:

I want to learn English! Because I want to talk with my son.
My son was adopted to America from Seoul in 2003.
I have waited a long time to meet my son.
Please help me.
2004.08.

A parent looking for their child?

Janine turned the thought over in her mind. In that dark alley, standing before a father wandering and searching, everything she had believed all her life began to crumble. American adoption agencies had taught them that Korean parents abandoned their children.

Janine and her twin sister, Jenette, had grown up believing they were ‘abandoned orphans.’

That belief was so deep-rooted that they had never even tried to search for their biological family. Something similar happened at the event. A mother appeared, saying she was looking for her lost daughter. Among the 400 adoptees gathered from 15 different countries, gasps of shock rippled through the room. She said her daughter had a birthmark on her shoulder, and everyone began pulling down their collars, glancing at each other’s shoulders. When she added that her daughter had been born in 1982, the crowd buzzed even louder. But after a few tense minutes, no one stepped forward.

The mother left the event in disappointment.

Parents in Korea were searching for their children. Some even claimed they had never consented to the adoption. Whispers began to spread among the adoptees:

“Was our adoption also done without our parents’ consent?”

Kyung-sook, who grew up in Norway, began to have doubts much earlier. She was “Number 6076” from Holt. Her adoption papers, which she always kept with her, stated that she had a biological father — yet they also included an “orphan registration.”

The adoption story was fabricated. Kyung-sook needed to uncover the truth.

As soon as she turned eighteen, Kyung-sook contacted Holt. To her disbelief, she found her family almost immediately — far too easily to make sense. At the time, in 1986, Holt explained that one of their staff members had “happened to find” her family while searching the streets.

It was an unbelievable story.

It wasn’t until 2017 that a Holt social worker, during Kyung-sook’s first visit to Korea in years, casually let slip that Holt had her family’s contact information from the very beginning. Why had they torn the family apart in the first place?

She could never forget the moment in 1986 when she met her older sister and relatives, and they embraced each other, crying. Just as she finally felt she had come home, she learned that the father she had longed for had already passed away. After losing his wife to illness, her father had temporarily placed his children in foster care and an orphanage.

He soon brought the others back — but the youngest, Kyung-sook, was never found.

Until his death, her father had desperately searched through orphanages across Korea, chasing false leads and hitting dead ends. No one in the family had known that one-year-old Kyung-sook had been sent to Norway by Holt.

Her sister told her their father’s dying wish: Find Kyung-sook.

It was a kind of love she had never even known existed. The burial site of her parents, in Anseong, Gyeonggi Province, became the closest place she could ever be to them. She might have lived as the beloved daughter of an ordinary farming family in the Korean countryside — but instead, she was sold to a place that was nothing short of hell.

Kyung-sook wasn’t the only child who disappeared without her parents’ knowledge.

The problems within the adoption system went far beyond simply taking children away.
Even after sending them overseas, the agencies failed to take responsibility for their existence.

There had already been warning signs that something was wrong with international adoptions — even for the twins.

They didn’t discover that they were stateless until age twenty-five, after their adoptive mother died.
In a box she left behind, they found their baby photos and a document that should have granted them permanent residency — but instead, it was stamped with the word “Alien. For twenty-five years, the twins had lived without citizenship.

They grew up in America, but they weren’t American. They were born in Korea, but they weren’t Korean either.

Although their adoptions had been approved by both courts and government agencies, more than half of the 200,000 children sent to the United States through international adoption were not automatically granted U.S. citizenship until after the year 2000.

Vance Twins Childhood Story

Vance Twins Childhood Photo

Under the neglect and bureaucratic convenience of both countries, many children’s nationalities simply vanished.

The National Council for Adoption in the U.S. still estimates that between 15,000 and 18,000 adoptees continue to live in America without citizenship.

During all those years, Kyung-sook and Janine did not yet know each other — but both kept writing. Janine used writing to release what she had always bottled up inside, while Kyung-sook began writing because she had nowhere else to unload her pain. They both needed to create their own narratives — to define what adoption had truly meant in their lives.

The global myth of adoption — the one the world believed — didn’t match their reality.

Though born in the same country and scattered across continents without knowing each other’s faces, they shared the same realization:

“Adoption may unite one family, but it destroys another.”

That was the truth about adoption, they both came to face. Their friendship began thirteen years ago when Kyung-sook joined an online forum for international adoptees founded by the twins, Janine and Jenette. The twins encouraged Kyung-sook and other adoptees they met through the forum to rewrite the story of adoption together.

The story Kyung-sook shared confirmed what the twins had long suspected — the illegal practices within the adoption industry. Her father, who searched every corner of the country for his missing daughter until his final days, mirrored the father Janine had seen wandering the alleys searching for his lost son.

Janine’s writing evolved into books, such as Adoption: What You Should Know,” and from there, into activism and solidarity. When the adoptees’ stories were woven together into a single book, their voices became stronger.
The collaboration flowed easily, built on mutual trust and shared pain.

Each person’s suffering became a pillar of the book — a structure that held their experiences together so that no one’s pain would feel isolated.

They began calling themselves the Seoul Sisters.

They were born in the same country, shared the same critical view of the adoption industry, and fought side by side to end it for the next generation. Part of their mission was also to dismantle the myth of Harry Holt — the man adoptees had been taught to revere. As they connected with more people and pieced their stories together, the larger picture began to emerge.

At first, the loudest voices came from adoptees like themselves — people who shared their position.
But now, the voices of the parents who had lost their children to adoption are being heard as well.
One mother’s words have stayed with them:

“We are getting old. We fear we’ll die without the crimes committed against us ever being acknowledged. What this industry fears most is that people will finally hear our voices. We don’t want this to happen again to the next generation.”

To Jenette, who has become an activist, certain adoptions are indistinguishable from human trafficking — the transfer of children from poor nations to wealthy ones. Something similar happened after the 2010 Haiti earthquake: Instead of helping vulnerable parents care for their children, adoption agencies encouraged them to give their children up and send them to the West.

It was no different from child deportation — or family destruction.

The essence of South Korea’s seventy-year-long adoption industry lies within this same vast context.

For Kyung-sook, the twin sisters’ activism served as a beacon of light. For the twins, Kyung-sook—who grew up carrying deep trauma yet became an endlessly selfless and compassionate person—was an extraordinary presence. From Norway to the United States and back again, they exchanged letters and cards, continually supporting each other. In a 2014 card, Kyung-sook wrote to Janine:

“You are more than a number.”

It was as if she wanted to remind her that the adoption system could never reduce them to statistics.
She also included the Navi greeting from the film Avatar“Oel ngati kameie” (I see you) — a line that, coincidentally, comes from Janine’s favorite movie.

Meeting in person one day became their shared dream.
Watching each other’s journeys made them want to fight even harder.

70 Years of Silence, 200,000 Question Marks

After a long and arduous struggle, in 2022, the Truth and Reconciliation Commission (TRC) met Kyung-sook in Denmark. Her adoption case, along with the Vance twins, was one of 56 in which human rights violations were acknowledged, out of 367 petitions filed by adoptees from 11 countries. It felt as though her childhood—once without witnesses—and her unrecognized grassroots activism had finally been acknowledged.

She now knows that what her adoptive parents did to her constituted severe abuse and neglect, punishable under Norwegian criminal law with up to six years in prison. Kyung-sook is currently preparing to file a lawsuit against the Norwegian government for human rights violations and human trafficking.

Evidence gathered by her and her attorney indicates that Nordic countries were aware adoptees were arriving with forged documents, yet they turned a blind eye and even pressured South Korea to send more children.

For Kyung-sook — often called an “angry adoptee” — this new battle ahead is one she welcomes.

Although Kyung-sook was able to find a clue to uncovering the truth, 311 other people had their investigations halted by the Truth and Reconciliation Commission due to lack of information or time constraints.

Among those names are Janine and Jenette.

Their adoption papers contain no record of each other’s existence, suggesting that someone had intentionally concealed the fact that they were twins to send them for adoption separately.

Over the years, the twins have traveled to Korea three times in search of their biological mother. On one occasion, they even printed business cards with their birthdate and photos, handing them out on the streets.

VanceTwins.com Searching for their Parents From the Book, The Search for Mother Missing.

VanceTwins.com Searching for their Parents. From the Book, The Search for Mother Missing.

Each time, Holt Children’s Services offered little cooperation.

During their last visit in 2016, Holt claimed there was an alley where the twins had been found and gave them a printed address: 19 Goyeodong, Songpa-gu, Seoul. Even that address seemed dubious.

“Just another wild goose chase from Holt,” Jenette muttered.

Yet, with no other options, they got into a taxi, holding a handwritten note in Korean that read:

“Looking for my Korean parents who were lost in the summer of 1972.”

They wandered through the empty alley near Songpa District Office, hearts heavy with emptiness.
The twins still have not found their mother.

But the sisters continue to fight.

Jenette succeeded in gathering support from more than 90 adoptee organizations worldwide, calling for an end to intercountry adoption.

On July 19, 2024, South Korea implemented the “Special Act on Domestic Adoption” and the “Act on Intercountry Adoption.”

These laws established a state-managed public adoption system, effectively ending the 70-year-old private agency-based adoption system.

Every year, intercountry adoptees request the release of adoption records in hopes of meeting their birth families, but according to the Korea Child Rights Agency, only about 3% succeed. Most adoptees continue to live without access to their identity, family history, or even medical information.

Kyung-sook often said:

“I wish I could have met my parents while they were still alive — to eat with them, cry and laugh together, hold their hands, and hear their voices.”

Even now, some parents still wander the alleys, searching. And some children still stand before mirrors, asking:

“Who am I? Where did I come from?”

200,000 question marks born from 70 years of silence.
The alleys remember —
the children who disappeared,
the children who returned only to wander again,
and the parents who are still crying.

Those who rise before the mirror now see themselves reflected in one another.
They will never stop asking questions.

San Francisco – Kim In-jeong (Nonfiction writer)
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